I always have words. The trick is to quiet the mind, to let stillness house itself in my being, in the space before thought. Thought is mostly words by the time it reaches the level of my conciousness, but can I find the peace of no words, of non-doing?
I think of a couple of other posts of mine to which I turn for guidance.
I tried to sing a couple of my favorite, most powerfully comforting Sacred Harp songs, but I am not too well and my voice is shot, so I’ll settle for not singing to you right now.
I will settle for hearing my daughter (in our tiny house where every room is next to every other room so one can hear everything from room to room), I will settle for hearing her sing Last Night I Had the Strangest Dream after I played Sweet Honey in the Rock singing Wade in the Water. She has known the [former] song since she was 3 years old.
And so we keep teaching peace. And we keep fighting for the good and the right and the clear blue truth, even if no action comes of it. We wade in the troubled waters of the human heart.
I know there will be no peace for the families of the victims down in Connecticut, but I wish them peace.
This video is not for the families. This is for us. Sometimes you have to choose sides. Let not their deaths be in vain.
twinklysparkles 
I can’t stop crying — it’s awful. I go about doing stuff then I come home and I’m crying. I’m in these parent’s heads. Imagining what they must be experiencing.
Yes, grieving is necessary and often ignored in our culture. Often, public and private grief is expected to be “over” within some magical time frame.
On the other hand, I hope you can give yourself some peace and quiet and rest away from thinking of the killings.
I read your blog post from 2 days ago and I don’t agree with everything (which is pretty much a moot point) but I do hope you get some peace. You are obviously sensitive to the intensity of our culture. People who are sensitive need even more caring and holding and buffering. You take care, Sandee!!!
Katherine