You have no idea how I’ve puttered around on this blog today, writing and rewriting meaningless posts about my busted rib, my pain, our travels, kinesio tape, my fuschia hair color, the ER at Emerson Hospital. The soundtrack to Moonrise Kingdom, the rainy Gogol show in VT last Thursday night, the wonders of the Alexander Technique when applied to physical pain, the movie Hannah and Her Sisters which I saw last night at the Amherst Cinema and on and on. You can hardly believe I’m real, right?
I am becoming squeamish about using the word fuck. I know it’s hard to believe. I think I heard Eugene Hutz use the word unjustifiably one too many times. I should not like to overuse the word. Can one fuck too much? No. Can one say fuck too much? Yes. I was going to title this blog post a fucking strange [poem] or something like that. Now I link almost everything onto Facebook and I am ever-more prudish about my language. But I would not overuse the word fuck, would I? I can be trusted. I will earn my use of the word; I will be fuck-worthy, I will not be fucking abusive.
This piece is odd and not so good and I wonder why I am bothering to post it. Fuck it, I guess you get the odd with the good, the good with the bad, the even with the off.
The Aquarium of Menopause
I am a membrane
I am a drum
the pink jellyfish
behind thick glass
the first thing you see at the aquarium
I am turned inside out
and overripe
asexual, a hermaphrodite
no need to spawn
in warm currents
I am pale froth
where my feet touched down
I will be sucked into a funnel
reversing course
Still, I miss the skin
that smoothed in my mouth,
your tautness at my lips
I am not this body
I am not this mind
resolutely bloodless
Can’t resist, have to spam you with two poems and their different use of profanity; and only of them is mine. Feel free to delete.
http://misfitsmiscellany.wordpress.com/2012/06/30/elementary-yeovil-town/
http://misfitsmiscellany.wordpress.com/2011/11/30/the-remnants-of-leather/
Like the poem.
Philip, poems from your website are not spam! Thanks for the links….I like this kind of back-and-forth around poems. What is writing for if not lively exchange? Unfortunately, not many people seem to read my blog and click through on links.
btw, I am finally getting around to adding mm to my blogroll. These things take time! Glad you like the “poem” though I must put that word in quotation marks. Let me say that I think there are some strong images (not one of my weak points), but no real cohesion yet….
thanks for the comment! Katherine
Thanks for the blogroll add. And, as I’ve discovered with MM, it’s better to grow slowly, get hits from people actually looking for what you’re writing that to add tags which bring in people looking for shoes and then finding a poem about shoes.
I actually like when people are led astray to my blog! Search terms are so interesting.
But yes, I don’t have many hits on certain days but I do feel like the people who read my posts (if in fact the hits are an indication of someone reading a post) want to be here.